Mood Swings

I go back and forth about God a lot.  I don't mean that I'm an agnostic, or that I'm not sure if I want to accept Jesus as my personal saviour.  (I don't.  No offense, but he's dead). It's in the Bible; check it out.
 Holy Bible, King James Version Old & New Testaments (with Book and Chapter Index, Searchable)

I mean I go back and forth over the idea that God is an active, present force or is more of a presence in a more passive, general sense.  I am in crisis, in a multitude of ways.  I have been looking around for various ways to guide me out of it.  Prayer, meditation, pharmaceuticals, therapy.  I've done it all. I'm still doing most of it.  But I have come around to the notion that Jim Morrison was right.  "You cannot petition the Lord with prayer."

But I'm still reading and staying open to the notion.